omfg.

so fucking raging. gid when you're looking forward to a holiday with your friends and some stupid fucking french bitches decide to fuck stuff up. 
right, this probably makes nae sense whatsoever. so i'll sort of explain from the beginning.


right, so for the past couple of years, i've done the french exchange with the school, and been paired with leo like, each time. and aye, he's my wee pal, bestest buds, whatevz. so me, kate, amy and hannah were supposed to be going over in summer, as this year was the last year that each of them would be able to do the french exchange, as they were all going to lycee, which is like, high school, i suppose. so anyway, plan was that i'd stay with leo, like i always have, amy'd stay with julie and kate and hannah would stay with belina, and that all the girls would go to julie's summer house for the weekend, then we'd come back, and i'd go to leo's for the rest of the week. then last night, leo tells me that julie and belina have just decided that i'm going to the summer house for the whole week. without leo. like no offence and that..but FUCK NO. i don't even like julie that much, she fucking stinks and she's a complete bitch, so why would i want to stay with her!?!?! and i don't see how the fuck they think they can just decide where i'm going, without even asking me! sorry, aye i'll just do what you say, cos you're my french person right enough. i'm not even fucking going over to see them, i'm only going over to see leo!! and i told my mum about it last night and she was even more raging than me, and told me i'm not allowed to go over now, if i'm not staying with leo..which is fair play, considering she doesn't know julie's family at all and i've never stayed with them before. so aye, they decide to change everything at the last minute, AFTER i've bought my ticket.

never been so fucking raging in my life.

fucking beautiful.

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last night i dreamt that somebody loved me..no hope, no harm, just another false alarm. last night i felt real arms around me. no hope, no harm, just another false alarm. so tell me how long before the last one? and tell me how long before the right one? the story is old, i know. but it goes on. the story is old, i know..but it goes on. 

morrissey's a fuckin genius.

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i got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one!


ahhhh, soooooooo tired, but i can't sleep. i think i'm overtired haha, i've no even done much today. i really need to start revising. i'm in suchhhhhhhh a weird mood.

hmm.

there's like too sooooo much on my mind haha :(

i really really like shaun. but he lives way too far away for anything to ever happen haha.

                                                     and i feel like an absolute fanny.

but aye, he's nice. and cute haha. just move nearer ffs. 

hmm, well  anyhoooooo, i'm offski, i needz ma sleep.

ooooooooosh!

lookin tidy lads!

 ahhhh, the royal wedding was so ace! i didn't even think i was gonna watch it! i only watched it to see the dresses and then i ended up sitting there watching almost all of it! and the kiss was so cute :') AND OMG PRINCE HARRY ♥♥♥ and we all know what kate and wills are gettin up to tonight, durtyyyyyyyyyyyyyys ;D hahahaha!

arghhhhhhhhh

safe to say, i'm shiting it for exams. i can't revise, i have like no motivation. fuck. my. life. and i need a job, which i can't get, til exams are done, cos i need time to study, by which time, all the decent jobs will be gone, no doubt. i neeeeeeeed moneyyyyyyy :( :(

FUCKING ROLL.

ahahaha, two of my favourite things :') harry potter and mean girls quotes ♥

AN' I BE LIKE PIKACHU, TAKE NOTES! hahahaha, fucking amazing!

hmmm.

you are literally the definition of a dick. like, why the fuck would you be so fucking ignorant? does it not mean anything to you that we were together for 8 months no? like aye, don't get me wrong, i don't want you back or that. far from it actually. but still, there's no need. why d'you have to make things so awkward? practically all our friends are friends with each other, so aye, when we do bump into each other it'd be nice for you to acknowledge my existence, thanks. rather than just blatantly ignore me, making it shite for everyone else. i was told you ignored me cos 'you have nothing to do with me anymore'..how can you have 'nothing to do' with someone you were with for 8 months? you were always the one that seemed to 'love' me so much. you're the one that told me i was beautiful, you're the one that always said you couldn't believe how lucky you were to be with me, you're the one that was always all over me. and you had a cheek sayin, 'oh yeah, we'll still be friends when we finish, we'll just go back to being how we were'. funny that, cos i'm sure we're not back to how we were. you're an idiot. everyone was right, i am too good for you, fucking deal with it. you're not even worth my time.

haters gon' hate.

i hate liars. i hate the wind, i hate when people fuck nice people about, i hate when people don't get the idea that i just want to be left alone, i hate being angry, i hate crying, i hate when my wrist swells up, i hate taylor momsen, i hate neds, i hate when my room's messy, i hate when my dad irritates the fuck out of me, i hate having no job, i hate how worried i am about exams, i hate the word 'cheeky', i hate being called 'princess', i hate feet, i hate when morbidly obese people moan about being fat, i hate when people cancel plans, i hate when people are off school for no reason and expect you to help them with their work, i hate when my knee fucks up, i hate my hands, i hate really cocky boys, i hate boys with highlighted hair, i hate how far away shaun lives, i hate when men eye me up when i'm in edinburgh, i hate when neds try and chat me up, i hate my cheesy wallace and gromit grin, i hate only fools and horses, i hate chinos that make your arse look massive, i hate how chubby my legs have got, i hate creepy boys, i hate when younger boys try and snake you, i hate boys with blonde hair, i hate really muscly boys, i hate when people spell things wrong, i hate the black eyed peas, i hate rude people, i fucking hate homophobia. i hate turkey, i hate people who act stupid, i hate fake bitches, i hate eating lamb, i hate having huge feet, i hate my brown eyes, i hate boys with small hands and small feet, i hate boys who aren't good with children, i hate boys that make no effort with your family, i hate banana-flavoured stuff.

things i likeeee.

i have a thing for accents, particularly northern irish. and french  and australian and scouse. i like when it rains, but its still warm. i like the sun and i like my freckles. gossip, my hundreds of bracelets on my right wrist, jeggings, big cardis, hugs from boys. hugs in general actually. i like when my hair goes wavy, but nice wavy, no frizzy wavy, i like typing how i'd talk, i like painting my nails, i like stripy stuff, the colour grey. i like the noise ice cubes make when you pour juice over them. i like sparkly stuff, my ipod, my phone, i like little stripy grey kittens, i like my guinea pigs, i like my family. i like when you just shave your legs and they're all silky smooth, i like taking photos of my friends. i like bitching about silly buggers, i like neck kisses, i like my nose, i like having money, i like the smell of freshly cut grass, i like abusing kate, i like calling amy an arab, i like looking chinese, i like my stomach, i like my eyebrows, i like thunder and lightning, i like writing, i like french, i like music. i like calling people cute. i like people with green/blue eyes, i like boys who play guitar, i like when boys call me 'sweetheart' or 'love' or 'baby', i like older boys, i like the smell of nailpolish, i like mexico, i like foreign people, i like singing my wee heart out with kate, i like how i manage to stay skinny, even though i do zero exercise, i like boys with nice backs, i like puppies, i like doing accents, i like when amy cracks my back. i like neutral colours, i like my wee seamonkeys :') i like the ':')' face, i like that gid stretch you do when you wake up, i like cracking my fingers, i like dreamcatchers, i like being one of the only sober people at a party, i like playing just dance, i like going on walks with kp, i like my little cousins, i like my uncles, i like when babies get to that age where they start to do stuff, rather than just sit and cry/shite. i like my gran and grandad, i like my mum's side of the family, i like looking like my mum, i like having my back and my legs and my arms tickled, i like cute jammies, i like long socks, i like ballet pumps, i like laughing, i like making stupid faces. i like shaun ♥

me.

hiya. i'm toni. i've just turned 16 haha, i feel well old! just thought i'd get this, cos i need a rant every so often :') i like music. alot. i overthink everything, i need to stop worrying. i get way to angry, but no the scary angry where you swear and stuff, i just get silently angry, so this will probs help in gettin all that anger out :'). i'll be back on later probs, i'm off out! laterzzzzzz!